It took me a while to realize this but I loved you more than I loved myself
I prayed for you more than I did for myself
And it's for this reason that I have decided to let you go.
I have come to a point where I need to give you up in order to regain myself.

I stay up at night sometimes
Thinking of sweet words to say to you
But then I remember
That words without action are meaningless
Then I stay awake looking  at the ceiling
Thinking to myself,
Should I give her the moon or the earth itself

I then fall asleep
With you on my mind.
I dream of a future with you

I awake in the middle of the night
Thinking of new ways to love you
I remain awake
Thinking of how to please you
I then pray that I can make you as happy as can be

Last night she sent me a text & it left me in tears.
It wasn't the text that got me overwhelmed, it was knowing that she loves me and that love alone could never be enough to hold us.
It was knowing that she bought me gifts and I couldn't afford  buy her chocolates or flowers. It was the love I received in abundance that had me crying, it was knowing that there is a woman patient enough to be with me regardless of how much of a mess my life is.