you kept me awake,
filled me with butterflies,
made me dream of my future,
my hand in yours.
you promised me with those eyes.

the universe works in mysterious ways.

you make me want to sleep and never wake up,
so i don’t have to remember,
the mistake i made.
i suppose it was my fault, for trusting you.

Red burning like your desires
I’m slowly scorched by the ember
Still i jumped to chase the fire
The pain numbed me, Still I lingered.

The coldness I see in your eyes
I thought I was the only one feeling Blue
Your stare pierces through me
As you unmask your emotions
The same way I do.

Yellow was your favorite.
Like your aura that shines bright
I may have or may not understand
Still I course through your blinding light

In the boundless expanse of this spectrum,
You were always a bewitching vision.
I reached for you with desperate hands,
Sought for your beauty, as it slipped through my grasp.

Am i lost again?
Clarity will you find me?
Vows, I held to yours.

I told myself to stop,

But my actions were relentless.

I thought it through,

Yet, I keep coming back to you.

I kept thinking 'bout your untied hair,

Kept thinking 'bout your smile—way too often.
The cold breeze when we were together,

That moment when you asked me to hold your hand.

I was lost, and so were you.

The deep conversations,

The facade you wore, hiding you were broken.
Despite that, I knew from the start—
I’m certain.
Certain It’s only you that I’ve wanted.

I wanted to learn about you every day,

Feel the emotions you feel,

Embrace you for who you are.
Your best to your worst.

As you embraced me for who I am.

Despite the uncertainties.
I’ll always be here, waiting.

You opened the car window,did you felt suffocated with what life has brought?You asked me if it was okay. I said,Just go ahead, cause that’s you. There’s no need to hold back on what you wanted to do. All I see is a real person who is true. My heart skipped a beat as a ray of light pierced through.

I kept thinking how every time i looked at you, you look different. With your tidy pony, or untied hair. Either or both is fine you still look beautiful whichever you put on. That you might be wearing many faces. I’m struck by the brightest but fell deeper with the opposite.

The way you gazed at me during the time you felt like i ditched you, the expression you gave when u saw me made my heart jumped. You grinned then smiled. I know you are anxious. I was worried, but it all faded out when i saw your angelic face.

The way you told me you are not in the mood, you acted like you were ignoring me. I let you be, but despite that you still bit me. I didnt know if you are acting playful or was annoyed because i was there. I’m ready to take all your mood swings, the good,the bad. If you are happy or glad. Is feeling down or sad. There’s nothing wrong with showing what you are. I’ll take any of it.

I was afraid, i know we only just met and my heart was not ready i had to think this through. I’m 6 feet down under and it feels like i’m digging a deeper grave but who am i to resist what i’m feeling. Who am i to feel fear from what other people will say. When you faced my weakest and i haven’t felt any single form of judgement. I got the courage to patched up my war torn self. I’m no longer afraid.

You told me your demons.
Who opposes what people see.
They were eating you slowly.
You wanted to be free.

i'll prove them wrong.
I'll fight them with you.
I'd rather lose myself and leave.
If that's what it takes to save you.