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Maria Melgar Sep 2018
I want to be able to live,
to breathe and to love.
How can I do this when I can't even fix myself?
I've done everything...
Smoke fills my lungs and boys keep me warm,
but I still can't fill this empty void.
I want to be whole.

I want to be whole,
so that I can live life instead of surviving.
I've done everything...
I'm at rock bottom and no one
or nothing can seem to pull me up.
How do I get out of this?
How do I stop being pathetic and lonely?
Do I need God?
Do I need to chop off my hair and leave?
Do I need to ink my skin so I won't empty?
What do I need to do?
I'm out of options.
I don't want to die,
but at this point it seems like the only relevant choice.
But...the thing is that I don't want to die.
I want to live.
I want to breathe,
and I want to love.
Maria Melgar Sep 2018
What unimaginable spontaneous energy you give doing absolutely nothing.
You’re powerful, like the thunderstorms in the sea
You’re angelic like the flora and fauna
You’re perfect.
Every thing you do, everything you are wont ever compare to anything else.
Although you don’t listen, or take a second to hear what I have to say...you’re still perfect.
From the way your eyes curve to the way your curly bouncy hair flows in the wind.
Nobody is perfect, especially you...but why are you perfect to me?
I can never see anything wrong.
This evil spell you’ve casted has left me trapped, stuck.
It’s been years since I’ve seen you, yet I’m still in your evil spell.
I know you don’t care anymore, you never did in the first place.
So why am I trapped...give me the antidote, the kiss that breaks the spell please.
Because even though you’re far from perfect, you’re perfect to me.

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