i look up at the sky
in search for stars
but instead,
i see darkness.

darkness has concealed
all the bright spots.
they use to give me hope,
but now they're gone.

if only
i could take away the darkness
and bottle it up.
so that i can see stars
up and shining again.

Im so sick & tired of waiting

you drive me to hurting myself,
I become insane when your no longer there.
The insanity, creeps up on the walls of my house,
bedroom,
like a nightmare it fills up my bed,
foils itself around me,
mind,
filled with thoughts that you might be with someone else.

your words are swords,
stabbing in the same place,
repeating every stab the same way,
stabbing,
deeper,
deeper,
and deeper into my heart,
my mind,
my soul.
I'm wounded,
you feel like a soldier,
you smile in victory of winning,
its always my word against yours,
I'm seeping into dirt,
soil,
a quicksand of more hurt,
in your words.

I wish I could sing you my heart with a thousand even millions choir of angels singing by my side as I accompany them with the melodic songs of my heart as each rhythm,
note and song sung sings of every emotion I feel about you in my heart, and how lucky I am to have you in my life.
What sweet melodies of love are these that come from my heart?
Its the joy and pride to say that my heart has truly being stolen by someone special in my life.
Oh how lucky I am to have fallen in love with you.