Its happening again…
This feeling I’ve worked so hard so get rid of, all you did was smile and my tummy went into knots and my anxiety started up again
Thinking i’ll never be good enough for this one human who so perfectly roams the earth with positivity and good looks.
******* for doing this to me
I have to constantly remind myself that you're just a person
I never wanted to feel this way again because I have a deadly habit of caring too much
I lose parts of myself to make space for the one that I love
and now theres no space left
I try to numb the physical pain love brings me but lately nothing works
Please dont break the little pieces of my heart i have left
you sometimes underestimate how sad i really am
just because i'm a fighter doesn't mean i won't give up
Im afraid that if the blood and broken skin on my wrist and thighs will show you how sad I really am and seeing that side of me will disgust and revolt you