Make your face blank and stare out into space

2. Wear very little makeup upon your boring face

3. Put on baggy clothes without looking like a disgrace

4. Stay quiet and only speak when others speak to you

5. Listen to other's insults until you believe them to be true

6. Pack your bag and head on home to do your chores

7. Grab the switch if you can even though it isn't yours

8. Play til someone else wants to and then disappear

9. Make yourself appear as insignificant as possible

10. Go to sleep and repeat it all tomorrow

10b. If you fail hide from everyone who hates you

Tell me answers

To all of life's hardships

Because I am lost

Hold back my hair

As I choke out false answers

And flush them away

Teach me how to be happy

Instead of a ball of stress

Because all is not as it seems

The twists and turns of

This sense of false security

Is a maze that attempts

To take away my mind

ignore the hunger
keep the lion tame
you have joined
the hunger games

**** in your stomach
cover it up
with an oversized hoodie
this *****.

ignore the hunger
ignore the hunger
they'll start hurting you again
if you eat
if you eat
you'll go through the same pain
i want a new brain

ignore the hunger.
survive longer
lose weight
never take

welcome
to the hunger games

The worst thing in the world
Is the days where you feel like nothing matters
The days where no matter what
You can't enjoy what you usually do
The days where you feel nothing
And everything
All at once
Like styrofoam covered in gray and blue
The days where the sun is out
But you feel the rain drops hitting your sleeve.
The days where you scrape and stab at your skin just to feel something.
To feel anything.
Or nothing.
...

Where can I go
Anywhere but here
Anywhere but here would be safer
Anywhere but here would be better
Where will I go
Somewhere i can meet new people
Somewhere i can hide
Somewhere i can have new experiences
With you by my side
Somewhere...
Anywhere...
Would be better than here.

Open your eyes
You're not safe
Get out from the open
Hide in a cave

Lock your doors
Hide with me
In the closet
Where no one can see

Life feels like a carousel
Spinning and spinning
I want to fall off
Too much happening
Nausea sprouting
Anxiety rising
More future scars appearing
Spinning
Spinning
Spinning
All alone