An unrequited love
Is a drought.

That seeks the comfort
Of the sun

Dear comet turned thief
Run. I feel no grief

I’m the rib that won’t break
I’m the light the moon fakes

I’m the drought
That forgot she was the sun

I believe I can be free from you
That the memory of you is less a tattoo
More of a bruise

Painful
Not permanent

Yet a memory
still
Is what you held me
And yet still lingered briefly
was the belief I had in being your wife

Your King’s crown
Only a fool’s gold
from Jill Scott’s script-ure

Karma is my favorite *****
and I won’t even have to wish her on you

Your demise
already Materialized
in the form of Your weakness’s
Imprints on me

To be clear
This is about me now
My evolution
almost makes me want to thank your ***** ***

Because What I’ll do with this hurt
Is God’s work
Breaking generational curses as I
Dare to heal in public
The audacity of me


See...You never understood me
Never bothered
You may have taken my first time from me
But you were the only one slaughtered

You’ll never forget
The night you killed your soul
I’m your tattoo...yet stranger
Judgment day will be your toll

&...
For me?
The ampersand runs deep

A magnolia blooms in my womb
No longer A tomb
for all the Ways
yo mama didn’t love you

Will you tell her you hate her?
Once you do
Will you tell her to
“Get that look off your face you act like you never been in pain before”
Look her in the eyes when you do

That’s your thing right?

It wouldn’t be your first time anymore either
You don’t have **** to lose
Gon head...Let that hate sink deeper

I miss you
And I love you

I’m not sure which
should cross my lips first

Ha! What a funny hyperbole
We only text.
-Side ***.

It was unintentional
Everything
Circumstantial at best
Nothing deliberate about the way he loved me
NEVER deliberate
Always...
it just happened

I’ll never forget
That night in bed
I lay wanting
real love
Sheets wrapping
my Screaming Queen
to silence
Spiritual
Suffocation

No...
I’ll forget that ****

But
One thing
I’ll never Forget
Is the last time
I chose to
lay wanting
Any
*******
Thing

Do you love him?

No...i Just...am happy when I see him

But do you love him?

Nah ...i just..Feel his saddness like it's my own

So...You love him

Yes. But like...in a more than friends but less than lover kinda way

You love him.

I dont. I just...i just care deeply. And we've agreed this isn't going anywhere so we're friends with benefits...im not in love yo..****..i just-

You just love him

Of course. He's important to me. His peace and the lack thereof is forever on my mind

Bc you love him

BECAUSE as a female I refuse to refuse the more than average king my affection or love as you call it.

Lol...oh really?

****...YES OK I LOVE HIM..but im not "in love" you know?

Genius...bc that makes sense...

We decided we won't!!!. So I'm just loving him from 10000 feet in the air. With no future between us this I'm sure of...

So why love him?

Because God built me this way

No he didnt...you chose to love a man who won't love you back...why.?

Bc I don't love myself and one word texts some how these days feel like a kiss on the forehead.

So you're lonely

Watch your mouth. Im a Queen deprived and this is all I know. I'm just holding him down.

So you're lonely, and lack the discipline needed to only afford love to he who returns it.

Or she

Right.

I just want to love someone with out the ****** caveat. Unencumbered, untailored, unscripted- free, I want to fall in love...for once. Just once... in a spiritual manner I have yet to see or feel.

But you can't.

Why Not?

You're too busy loving your friend.