I've come to see
that I feel fear almost constantly
it's the fear of losing all I love
because it's seems to me
that people disappear so quickly

daddy's dead
who's next?
more worries in my head
don't think about it
it was so long ago
but still I'm lacking hope
because so few stay
because everything good goes away

and never mind falling in love
did it once
and broke my heart
at first so fun
forgot about life for a bit
but I always over thought it
failing to be
everything he wanted to see in me
after a year so intimate with each other
he moved on to another

how crushed I was when he went
for days lied in bed blaming myself
for not being as good as his someone else
for not being everything he wanted in me
and for not looking like what he wanted to see

from this my fear of losing love progressed
relationships always leave me a mess
so forget trying to hold on
to someone who so soon will be gone
you can trust so few
and even when you do
they just may
break you in every way
or if you're too attached and they die someday
you're broken
always broken