you don't understand. the thought of your eyes on me is what keeps me up at night. i want you to ask me on a date to mcdonald's. it's okay, i know you don't really love me. i'm terrified you'll leave when you realise how awful i am. everything i've told you has been truth. can i kiss you in the back row of the cinema? nine months is a long time. you only love me because you have to. even though i ask, i don't want to hear you talk about her. one day you'll see i'm not as perfect as you thought. i know you will keep absolutely none of your promises. i love you more than you can ever realise and that makes me so sad. perhaps you are the reason i am still alive.
thursday 4th december '14 ~ most of these are for you, but not all