Dec 2014
Indecisiveness**
enough as it is,
I stay in the confines of my comfort,
choices I begun to prolong.
Waiting for something
probably won’t come.
I walk back and forth,
And climbing ladders
- up and down,
an unchanging routine
draining the life-force
of my pretend smile.
Sluggishly the plot-holes
starts to appear
messing the careful laid-out script
I master to act.
Barriers starts to crack, little by little
I gather the courage
to put the imaginary duck-tape
to hold them together
a little while longer
until the final choice, is made sure
without fear and hesitation.
enough as it is,
I stay in the confines of my comfort,
choices I begun to prolong.
Waiting for something
probably won’t come.
I walk back and forth,
And climbing ladders
- up and down,
an unchanging routine
draining the life-force
of my pretend smile.
Sluggishly the plot-holes
starts to appear
messing the careful laid-out script
I master to act.
Barriers starts to crack, little by little
I gather the courage
to put the imaginary duck-tape
to hold them together
a little while longer
until the final choice, is made sure
without fear and hesitation.
I am starting to put this piece to rest now, I have made my final decision from the long hold of Indecisiveness I felt for the past several weeks or even months. I am quitting my work here in Saudi, and plan to go home this January 2015, back to the Philippines for many months of rest for a time. For three years I've stayed here in this country, it's quite good but the management who handles my employment is really terrible, I can't take it anymore. I know quiting without backing up for another job to transfer into is a not a good idea, still i am taking the risk. I am now willing to start another long journey in job seeking. wish me luck, my friends. Thank you all for reading me, I am blessed to have this pen to penned the execessive emotions...
