There's an anchor in my chest, and although it keeps me from drowning in these nightmare sweats, my ribs are splintered, my heart bruised from being weighed down so much.
I get a masochistic contentment from it, though. There's a soft happiness I get from seeing the small reminders of you that I see throughout my day, although they inject adrenaline through my veins and send constrictions through my lungs.
I've stumbled upon the gap where you normally walk and I've fallen through the space you usually occupy. I've tried to lean against the mere thought of you but every time I've crashed against the cruel reality, against the stinging realization.
I've become lost in these sheets, trying to find you in the hole of my blankets that caresses your curves and hugs your dimension.
I wish this anchor of my love hadn't fallen at your neck, I wish my sentiment hadn't ****** you against a wall and bound you, and it's not in the way we'd both prefer.