i don't think i ever meant to love you
everything was planned out
1. go to school
2. get good grades
3. go to college
4. see the world
there was no time for someone like you
no room for someone like you
no purpose
but you were either gonna be in my life or not
all or nothing
black and white no ifs and buts
i held you by the ankle and submerged you
we were swimming in the pool of paradise
not even thinking about what lay beneath
the darkness of drowning in our hedonistic ways
our doom didn't lie in the water but in ourselves
we ****** the fountain of youth dry until our bellies were overflowing
until there was nothing left
there was nothing left
i loved you
but i didn't meant to