Tonight, months later, I lay here accompanied with only The leisurely winds teaching my cigarette smoke to dance And a rage as present as the hole your father put into your playroom wall when you were five. Did you mean a word of it? The night we spent together on a stranger's front porch Because their car wasn't in the driveway It was you, me, and that bottle of whiskey you'd stolen from your mother's liquor cabinet. You were tracing the lines of my palms Whispering promises into them Until intoxication brought us slurred words and sleepy eyes. Since that night I've wondered if mountains would choke On the echoes of me screaming your mangled promises into them or If the trees would suddenly blush in shades of gold and red; a temporary Autumn. I never knew how it felt to drown until you left me choking on the sound of your name.