it was never time
for me to let go of you
you forced me to
by fleeing to someone else
when i showed you
no affection
and showed you little to no love
so to this day
and for this feeling i have  
i wonder if the fault
is in my stars or yours
because you could have left
instead of destroying my trust
and destroying the thought of loving you
by sleeping with someone else
and making me hate myself for so long
that i never thought i would
ever love myself again
but in retrospect, i understand
i would not stay with someone
who wouldn't take care of me either