I haven't slept in my bed
I cant, knowing that you did
your shallow breath pulled me closer
now I cant explain how far I am.

prescription bottles fill my bed side table
thoughts of you fill my head
I lock the door
trying to leave the pain outside
I don't succeed
because I let you in

Im oxy-codependent and yet so ignorant
next time you do something like this
know it wasn't free
there is a huge gaping hole
left inside of me