when i show you my work, you tell me i have talent but here is the truth - loneliness is the key to cultivation anyone else in the room is a hawk in wait every sound i hear is a step closer i can measure in seconds how long until they look there is something weak in being a poet and something that should be hidden the concept of poetry is something too unusual and too emotional and too weak
2. let me hide myself
you tell me i have talent, but i tell myself i have this insecurity: im worried of writing too beautifully, im worried of being too personal or too unpersonal, im worried, the thing i desire most is a disconnect between the words on the screen-
-and my keystroke fingers typing them a wire sheared in half, red and blue cords spitting out of their black cage, neutrons and protons that will never reach a destination it will be better if i'm reading another's work and not my own
3. let me have other dreams
i have this insecurity, but i also have big dreams i dreamt of starting government rebellions with pens and ink i dreamt of fantasy worlds with their own big bang: my first word i dreamt of heroes battling with swords while i battle for the best phrases
but these are only things i dream about and poetry books are not full-length novels or epics i will never have inspiration for fifty thousand words or reach into double-digit chapters but i wish i could
4. let me have this dream
i have big dreams and this is why i will show you my work