mind blocked
heart thumping
fingers fidgeting
legs shaking

here we are
waiting for an update
anything
even just a note

hoping for good news
we rebuke any bad scenario  
and just hope for the best

and in a blink of an eye
we hear the news
we are torn and grateful
two feelings at once

we don't know what to feel
and we start reminiscing

our hearts torn that you are gone
but grateful that you are no longer suffering
we were hoping to be with you
but we know you're better Up There

you are finally Home
and we know you're happy
probably jumping in joy
and watching over us

you will be missed
but never forgotten
you'll be in our hearts forever,
dear Mr. Smit.