I've fallen into an inevitable black hole; One of my own divine creation, With streaks of light blue acrylic paint And rusty guitar strings that sing 8 bar blues in the dark.
I've envisioned a palace of my own, Tall, white walls Decorated with Italian paintings and some of our own, The light creating shapes on the carpet.
I've found a familiar sense of home Somewhere inside the pit of your chest Next to the rhythmic beat Of my favourite song on repeat
From cardboard walls of colour-struck emotional discomfort, Formed a sense of urgency Between interlaced fingers and spines
I've come to find that I misplaced myself somewhere there Perhaps beneath the gloomy chair in which you sat Or in the fine laced stitches, burning blue onto the surface of our skin
I've inhaled the smoke of a thousand burning thoughts All of which never cease to return from the dead Much the same as my grieving eyes Who do not seek to forget the freckles on your back Or the creases on your stomach
I've given infinite love to a murderer One who does not seek to return it And after years of chasing oblivion I am now aware of what it feels like To be an undesired second.