i guess i don't know what i'm looking for
all i want is for this war to end
i'm done with nights crying on the floor
just waiting for my heart to mend

i wish i didn't have to find
relief and comfort in this blade
the only things it's put in my mind
are reminders of the mistakes I've made

all of these thoughts in my head
are slowly killing me
i want help but they give me pain instead
i'm hurting; can't you see?

i want all of my demons to die
maybe then i'll escape all this hurt
but what if making my demons die
means killing myself first?