i tried to drown you out with
my tears
but i ended up choking and your
memory flooded my mind
and now between a welt-covered wrist and
a new infatuation
my love for you lingers in limbo
which is what i've been trying to
achieve
these past six months because
letting you in was a death sentence
and i knew it
and i tried to escape it
but each time i ran i fell
deeper in love with you
and i'll forever look for you
in every man i speak to
and in this time i am separated
from you
i've found someone new
to make me giggle like you
used to
and perhaps i'm falling for him
but i know as soon as
i hear your voice come
over the phone
i'll be right back at the beginning
in love
and
choking on your memory.