it's kind of funny that i fell in love with the idea of you BUT SOMETIMES IDEAS ARE SO FAR AWAY FROM THE TRUTH. I EVEN HATE THE IDEA OF YOU NOW AND IT'S KIND OF HARD TO HATE THAT. YOU MADE ME HATE THE AIR AROUND ME YOU MADE ME HATE MYSELF JUST AS MUCH AS I HATE YOU. YOU MADE ME LIKE THIS BECAUSE YOU COULD AND NOW WHEN YOU'VE TURNED ME INTO A MONSTER INTO A CREATURE GASPING FOR AIR AND SPITTING OUT BLOOD AT THE WORLD, YOU WALK AWAY. you are prince charming, but only in fairytales is prince charming actually charming.
sometimes i hate myself more than i hate you and i don't know how to change that