My brother, it's as if we're speaking of a ghost when we speak of you. Your name constantly accompanied by "remember when"s and "I miss"es. But you're not gone, you're just away on a little trip that turned into an extended stay. But it's no vacation paradise. It's like you took a one way flight into a bird cage and you watched the door slam shut right behind you with nothing you or I could do. And it pains me to see because you're such a free spirit but they strapped a name tag to you and made you their pet. Threw you in with the convicted rest until you rebelled and they kept you by yourself. Well over a year spent in solitude and when they let you out you weren't the same. And mom, she wasn't either. I swear I saw her flinch every time she heard your name. Little brother, he's the spitting image of you. Like he's trying to make up for your loss. A stand in a mini me every time he laughs it's your face I see. He wears your hat every single day and it breaks my heart he wants to be just like you and I pray he doesn't take after your bad parts too. You're coming home soon and as happy as I am I'm scared to death it won't be long before you're back at it again. Rehabilitated is an empty word you know what it means but it's something you've never heard. You are what you will always be. Even if what you're not is free.