the cool hard tiles
in the shower
    mixed
   with the
          sinking
    trace that
i have of her. water
water
             water
       rolling along
   in streams
blending with
             my blood
           and
  gore
      and
         tears
      tears
                  tears
       infused
    with
         sour salt
                                and
        bitter thoughts
she  n e v e r

       came back

    so did her

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