Destroy your body after you realize you can't destroy your soul. You will always be aware of your body, now. This is a new world, you've entered a new layer of yourself, quite literally. Remember to walk carefully or you'll be bursting at the seams. Keep that look out of your eyes should someone be able to see through, or worse: sympathize. See the ones who know the feeling must be avoided. They are fragile, like you. You would surely destroy them. And, darling, nobody wants sweep up two broken people.