That first puff, the first sip, the burn in my throat, light headed and shaking, another hit another shot, I remember when I promised never.
I am not the person I used to be, I am not a beacon of hope, I am a shipwreck and I can see the smokestacks falling into the sea.
Sometimes I have to remind myself I am awake, that this is not a dream, maybe one day I'll wake up and it will be.
Do not look at me like a sob story, do not ask for a happy ending, there is no ending, this is my life and it is ongoing smoke bumming ***** stealing blunt passing cold turkey relapsing screaming screaming screaming.
Red ribbons and markers on posters, this is not the person I was before.