Why does life have to be so hard? Why can't I just take a knife to the heart? Rise above this earth and depart Everyday I'm getting pierced with darts I don't like this ****, it's not how I wanna live I'm tired of being the sweat on your sleeve I wanna get away from this **** so I can breathe Thinking too much, can't free my mind It's like depressing thoughts got me in a bind I try to not mind but it's hard when you're on the grind Always against the flow, and never on your mind Never on your team cause I'm not meant to gleam Or maybe life's about the need to feel wanted To be in the lead and always be complemented But how am I to do that when I'm not even noted People always eat at me until they are bloated And in the end I'm just the sheep being hoarded No choice, no sense of direction No point of pursuing perfection Because I will always get the door, too used to rejection I will never be your knight in shining armor or your superhero with a cape But don't worry about me, eventually I'll make my escape If I get enough ***** to leave the states To finally embrace a life where I can't be traced Where my shoes do not have to be laced And I don't have to come face to face with myself, the disgrace.