I see them in my mind
Count them as they fall
Glittering red jewels
Do not loose them all

One
Parents split
Two
Mom doesn't understand
Three
No one loves me
Four
I hurt him
Five
He devoured my innocence, I thought I loved him
Six
It wasn't love, it was ****
Seven
I can't tell my friends
Eight
Judgement, if anyone knows
Nine
They all hate me
Ten
Inadequacy
Eleven
Alone
Twelve
No one understands
Thirteen
Oh God
Fourteen
....
Fifteen
My mom finds me
Sixteen
She sees my rubies
Seventeen
Screaming
Eighteen
Hospital
Nineteen­
Psych Ward
Twenty
They ask questions at school
Twenty One
I need to see my rubies again
Twenty Two
They make beautiful pictures
Twenty Three
I told you, and him
Twenty Four
Your sad faces hurt me
Twenty Five
You make me throw my pretty friends in the river
Twenty Six
I stop