Many people fear their past They look back terrified Ashamed Worried it will repeat itself
I'm not sure I am My past is riddled with darkness It is millions of mistakes sewn into billions of memories I have seen darkness But I will not become Darkness
I have laid down on cold bathroom tiles Grasping for air and drowning in pain I have bled myself out for a love I will never have I have seen death I have stopped death I have watched friends fall into puddles of misery Before my very eyes I have woken in the beds of strangers And taken my leave without a trace I have been beaten to a pulp by a lovely friend Who still insists she can't remember I stayed home when they go out Because I can't bare to see sunlight
But I will not become darkness My past has no bearing on my future Because I have also seen light And it is good Illuminating But mostly just good