Its going to be okay I told myself. But what is 'OKAY'? When the world finally stops? When the resists stop being first choice? When a permanent smile is the only thing that shows? I don't know what feels like to be okay. But I know what it feels like, when I don't feel like crap. And when I don't think about him, I don't feel like crap. I feel, what I believe is to be okay...