If this is the end Where do I begin I've suffered in silence Fighting the tortured screams Echoing from within
My head explodes A rainbow of emotions rains on my heart Carving acid trenches I'm drowning in this corrosive ocean
I'm told to wait Wait for the moment to pass Wait for the day when this moment has passed Wait for the time when I can learn to sing again Wait for the day I can be happy again
But waiting is monotonous I want to take a leap of faith Hang my pain up in the air Watch my my final sunset And take the plunge Because I don't care
The days before are all but forgotten And I've wasted enough time I'm tired of convincing everyone I promise you, I'm fine
Those shrieks of pain They are my own No where is safe from panic Not even my home
Not even my bed That stood loyally beneath me It now houses darker creatures That only want to **** me.
Not even my teddy bear Possessed. Has a mind that can think That absent smile Those glassy eyes I swear I've seen them blink
Imagine that someone With cosmic scissors. They can cut Every link to existence With a single thought They can nail your coffin shut.
Imagine that everyone's gone You wade around like a ghost You're lucid in your nightmare I know what hurts you the most
I know how to ignite a flame That will burn your brain forever I know how to start a storm That will rage in you body forever I know how to wage a war That will never end I know how to send you over the edge I am that that flame I am that storm I am that war I am your pain I am you
This poem is very personal. It is a summary of my struggles since September 2013. Thankfully I am mostly better but I thought a poem would be a good way to deal with the echoes of that.. really dark time in my life