indecisive, reckless. i'm losing my mind. restless: my heart, my body…i can't control. these thoughts - consuming me, taking me over.
my head is whispering, "breathe darling breathe." my heart is crying, my heart is dying my heart is sighing, "let go, let go." restless: my soul, "baby, let go"
confused, everything misconstrued.
so used, so broken so much complication so much self altercation.
indecisive: my heart. my head is shouting, "LET GO, LET GO!" my skin is crawling, my skin is begging my skin is pleading, "don't hurt me no more."
restless, reckless, dazed lost in an unnatural haze. my mind is screaming, my heart is weeping my body is traveling on a path; indecisive. which way will it go? away away, as far away as it will stray.
broken and still laughing, a walking contradiction. restless: my soul…losing control.
This poem was written one night back in 2011 in a tiny motel room in Maine when I thought my world was ending.