my best mates have always been these walls, this computer, and the pages in every book I've ever laid my eyes upon
I've always found myself to be quite lonely
little did I realize that I had everything I needed
I've found comfort, in knowing that these pages can not up and leave me
they cannot decide to hate me
or ban me from their pithy lives
they cannot judge me or deem me unsatisfactory
I have found comfort, in knowing that these walls can not walk, and can not think, and can not judge, and most of all, I have found comfort in knowing that these walls can not talk*
I've learned, over the years, to live alone, inside my own mind, not to worry about others
I've learned to keep to myself
I've found things to keep my occupied
and most important of all, I've learned you can not let your emotions and feelings depend on those around you
because they will fail you
every time, they will fail you
you must learn to live with yourself, you must learn that your mind is an oasis, an escape, a paradise, that does not need to depend on anyone else, but yourself to be happy