stumbling into the main hall in my stained hospital gown, my feet covered by those socks with the grips, my ******* swollen
beyond measure, rock hard for lack of expression. Eyes that saw me but didn't question me. My growing panic when I missed turning in
yet another food option card. Three missed meals when my body needed the nourishment more than ever.
The pills they prescribed to placate. The kindly old man, his lip tremors and teeth stained yellow, who freely extended his friendship, who called me comrade. My exhaustion,
my deprivation of sleep and food. Of my right mind. The way I laid my head on the lunch table, asking my new friend if he could watch over me
as I slept, nightmares and demons finally staved for some indeterminate amount of time. How everyone there let me call my mom over and over again, on the precious shared
hall phone. The way I was starved, thinking I would die there. The little card I drew, artwork at its finest, not knowing what reality was anymore.
How I recalled my own father being in a similar mental institution after his own suicide attempt. How he was saved. How I was.