[02/04/25 is the date of early notes. Parish Rash was the title. leave this version for reference : mallard quacks and the hour tolled by church bells/cold damp house flush lawn planted obscene/warm memories an evening fire and family room/i'm mooding through the memory and it grooms apart organic/birthing not river not smoke/earwigs take to the air over the tar garage roof/and i return home back through time/the fir trees return fierce sprouting ridding the new extension/that my parents had now still to add/and the caravan my parents would later park on concrete/the storms of one year return the old wall at the property edge/lean it back up and refill in its mortar /and the cottage reforms an ancient peace with its surrounding/it's no longer my families claimed place/reseemed seam seem with ghoulish history]