From birth until now How I’ve loved you, Wonder of my soul- The light that shines home A universe I would build for you As time marches on, My days grow shorter And vision begins to blur Unable to see the greater beyond
But should you go before me Know that I’ll be right behind you It will be okay, my sweetest princess (I don’t want you to go)
I’ve had my fill, Saw the heights of the hills watching stars shoot across As I wished upon them all And you came to be, Miraculous and free I knew heaven was real
So don’t waste a moment, Looking back at what could have been When your future is bright And our time is running out I’m up and over all my best days But if I could do it over I’d replay The very moment you were conceived Was the very moment I came to be I just want to make you proud Before I go.
But should you go before me, I’ll be right behind you Slay any demon calling, Until we reach singularity Know on my death bed, darling I don’t want you to go…
Years carry weight, I’m drowning in sorrows of regret And hoping the tide won’t take you But I know, as you grow, you’ll fly the nest Find your own in and out of our orbit I’ll wish upon the stars that take you- To your destined path I hope that you’ll remember me
But should you go before me I’ll be right beside you, Conquer any evil, but my dear I don’t want you to go…
As I struggle with turning 40 later this year, and recompense about loss and aging, I can’t help but think of a time where my daughter is on her own and no longer needs me to guide her, and what would life look like if I or her suddenly passed unexpectedly…these are the intrusive thoughts I have left to my own devices for too long