I have built a shrine to you in my ribs, lit candles behind my teeth, burned every whispered thought like incense and let the smoke of you fill my lungs.
But you don’t see it. You don’t feel the weight of my hands pressed together in silent prayer, offering devotion to a god that does not answer.
You move like gravity, pulling me in, holding me just close enough to taste what I will never touch.
I know this is not love. Love is given, love is known, love is a bridge. This is something else— a ghost, a sickness, a dream that refuses to die no matter how many times I wake up.
I have dissected every glance, read scripture in the way you say my name, built entire galaxies out of the empty spaces between us.
You don’t know what it’s like to live inside a story that only plays in my head.
You don’t know what it’s like to have your name carved into the marrow of my bones where even time cannot touch it.
You don’t know what it’s like to starve for a love that does not exist.
And still— I keep the shrine. I light the candles. I kneel.
Because limerence is nothing if not the worship of something that was never real.