His blue eyes have darkened
I know what this means
The man I love is breaking
Traveling
He's on his way
To another place
Where sanity breaks
I step back and prepare for his cries
Cries of desperation to know himself once more
He's here but not
Himself yet another
Lost behind a mesh curtain
Disturbing his veiw of what's real
I see him still
Part way here
And I am frightened
My selfish desires to have him return
I yell and scream inside my head
Searching for a way to make him see that I am right in front of him
That he is still inside somewhere
I worry for us
That it will never be as it once was
My self-obsessed needs
To be free of the person he is not
His anguish is destroying him
Destroying me
I am changing
I'm losing myself
My desperation with the seperation of self
It's tearing me apart
My selfish heart
I need him back to show me that I am not alone
I want this over
I want his strength to return home
I need him back
As he was
Obsessed with me