Oct 15
You are a tremendous overthinker
that's for sure. Taking a person like
you on.. with all your chaos
is no small task.
In order to do that,
I have to take care of myself..
in order to keep from being
pulled down.. or pulled into
your chaotic whirlwind.
So I create parameters of protection
through my words sometimes
when we talk.
You are not an easy person to take on.
There are few people in the world
that are even able to truly take on a person
like you, within any kind of depth.
That is how chaotically traumatized
the inside of your whole beautiful
body is. And somehow you take it
personally when I try to bring
structure in,. as though you're three
years old,
and you take regular grown up talk
as being some kind of threat.
But.. you are fragmented and ripped
to shreds on the inside by those
who truly brought harm
instead of good when you were little.
From that place inside of you, a
anything feels like judgment.
Anything feels like it's trying to control you
or put things inside you.
I know that.. and I still love you
Loving a person in your condition
requires a certain level of self protection.
It's like I have to tie a
special rope around myself when I
jump into your world.. so I can be
pulled back out.
For me..
The structure of my own words are that rope.
It is the only way I can love you deeply
and enter into your absolutely broken world
Please try to understand..
even though it scares you..
Just how much I need that
If you are able to do that,
then I think you might even be able
to actually love me.
I did not come to steal,
or control..
.. or fix
I came to be there for you
within all of your broken chaos
"Today is yesterday when you don't know
how to rebuild the walls
that someone has knocked down..
To tell the truth,
it's hard enough without a lover
who you want to hide your darkness from
so they won't let you down"
https://youtu.be/ZeDZCixQpvo?si=3VvphGSflD3R6D95
😔xoxo
how to rebuild the walls
that someone has knocked down..
To tell the truth,
it's hard enough without a lover
who you want to hide your darkness from
so they won't let you down"
https://youtu.be/ZeDZCixQpvo?si=3VvphGSflD3R6D95
😔xoxo
(Musica est spiritus Dei ❤)
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