attempts to create connections always seem so inauthentic it feels more natural to push people away so that i don’t have to experience the rejection on my end
i don’t think i’ve ever been comfortable inside my own skin but i try to find ways to learn to love me and when i fail to find a way to make that happen i push everyone else away
i’m my own punching bag no one could be as cruel to me as i am and i think the reason i beat myself up so badly is to keep anyone else from being able to hurt me