From you I learned that anger was scary. You never expressed it in a way that wasn't frightening. Anger was always directed at someone or something, You often voiced threats and I could only nod along because I was so afraid.
Ever since the day you burned the bridge we made, The string that kept me full of hope; burned and faded away, I'd lie to myself for a long time, I protected you my whole life.
Because of you, I don't know how to feel mad. It rarely happens but when it does, It's usually directed at myself. Because I don't want to scare or hurt anyone else.
I can't use my voice when I'm angry I cry and step away, Or wait until I get to my car to scream as I drive home and feel hateful.
I hate my anger... I feel disappointed I'll never tell you but I wish you had done better.