Dec 2023
Dare I say,
I take it day by day.
Moments of play,
Sculpted like clay.
But a thought to die
Pops up in my mind.
My mind,
Once flourished
Turns decayed,
Malnourished.
It captures my brain.
Perhaps I'm insane?
But on the outside,
I am sane.
No worry
To come my way.
All is well,
I know,
For that will stay the same.
It cannot change,
I CANNOT BE THIS WAY.
But alas,
I am.
I fall ill
In earth's hands.
For now
I carry utter guilt,
And blame.
What a shame.
I take it day by day.
Moments of play,
Sculpted like clay.
But a thought to die
Pops up in my mind.
My mind,
Once flourished
Turns decayed,
Malnourished.
It captures my brain.
Perhaps I'm insane?
But on the outside,
I am sane.
No worry
To come my way.
All is well,
I know,
For that will stay the same.
It cannot change,
I CANNOT BE THIS WAY.
But alas,
I am.
I fall ill
In earth's hands.
For now
I carry utter guilt,
And blame.
What a shame.
So this poem is not personal to me, but more so to one of my best friends. We have known each other since school and he has always struggled with self-doubt and depressive episodes. He always tries to stay strong for others when that is merely impossible to achieve. We all should never feel guilt for how we feel. We feel what we feel and that is completely okay. Be kind to yourselves, sending lots of love !
