i miss being wanted. i know i must have felt it before, because how can one long for something they've never known? i wish i was able to believe in love outside of view. but it seems like every new moon i forget your touch and i'm running through the woods just to make you love me again. i believe you every time you tell me you could never hate me (how couldn't i) but sometimes your words don't last. sometimes i lie in bed trying to make myself dream of you so i won't exhaust you with my cries in the night. sometimes i want to take advantage of your soft hands feel safe in your mind and let you take care of me even when i don't need it. it makes me feel selfish, to want that kind of love.