I was shovelling drifted snow outside today and was overcome again by the warmth of that beautiful, deep feeling.
You may never understand the need to push through the mundane and into the deep, central Core of the one you care most about. For you, in your current world, that is not attainable.. but for me.. looking at you..
I know you very much have that deeply-gorgeous, extremely worthwhile attainability in you.
Without connecting deeply with one such as you, I would just be sliding superficially along the surface throughout this entire 'life' here..
Knowing there is a whole world of untapped closeness lying just under the status-quo of the normal 'everyday' operating level.
That is not saying we would necessarily be ******
at all
It just means that there is, sadly such a huge amount of giving up of the Beautiful in order to continue on skating along the surface.
That is why I do what I do, and say the things I say late at night. During the day, I am operating out there on the "everyday" level. At night, I am connecting into the unfathomable depths of the most lusciously-beautiful gold mine I have ever known. I can't do the "surface" thing with you, Young-love.. In fact.. I won't.
You get that in your marriage, and pretty much everywhere else around you. I refuse to be a part of that tremendously sad list.
You will never not be that deeply luscious gold mine.. You will never not be fully worthy of the attempt.
You want to be left alone.
.. ok.
..And as you cross the wilderness spinning in your emptiness --if you have to, Pray..
looking for a sign, that the Universal Mind has written you into the Passion play
And as you cross the circle line well, the ice wall creaks behind; you're a rabbit on the run. (..and the Silver splinters fly in the corner of your eye shining in the setting sun)
Well, do you ever get the feeling that the story's too **** real
and in the present tense?
..Or that everybody's on the stage and it seems like you're the only person sitting in the audience?