I take my prescribed pills with an energy drink Monster energy if your wondering And it's always the zero-sugar version Because the sugar will rot my teeth. Iām constantly on the verge of healing and destroying myself Like a seesaw that's perfectly balanced I am fed up with breaking my hand And then bandaging it up myself. I am my own executioner and doctor all in one body The healing in the midst my own self destruction I am the silence before an explosion The calm before the storm.