Late night phone calls Conversations and sapphic dreams Days got so long I couldn't keep her entertained It’s haunting and painful Loving what you can’t hold
Coldness crept beneath the warmth I thought she gave Ensnared me; constricting I couldn’t breathe Thought I was breathless because I loved her But she killed me with her sweetness
Worry, confusion Tainted memories Agony and heartache Looking back in vain
I’m blurry, misguided Troubled and insecure Uncertain and lonely Trying to find a cure To all of my despair Thought she was something more
Wet and red As my wrists bled She was there In every tear I shed What a haunting way To honor The memory of a ghost
Priestess in my memories Temptress in my dreams Why was it so easy? So easy to leave me? To hurt me? How was it so easy to let me go?
I’m still holding on To all the things I can’t recall You must have took them all On our last call The sound of your laughter The sound of your voice Choking on your tears I still remember
Worry, confusion Tainted memories In the tea stained color Of her eyes Agony and heartache Looking back in vain
I’m blurry, misguided Troubled and insecure Uncertain and lonely Trying to find a cure To all of my despair Thought she was something more But I was colorblind, I should’ve known When our love was blue in a world of red
This is a song I wrote based on my last poem, Sapphic dreams. For context it is about someone I loved who ghosted me out of nowhere. A fun fact, the tea line has a double significance because not only are her eyes brown but she introduced me to my love of tea as well as my favorite blend- I can't even drink it now. The reason I say our love was blue and called it blue flags was because that was her favorite color. If you see a previous poem of mine called Blue that is about a different ex, guess I should avoid people who like the dreadful hue.