You hated that I was such a pessimist. I complained when nothing was wrong.
Every time I opened my heart to burden you with my worries, you sighed with exasperation. Your eyes filled with deep frustration. Your uncaring words said with scathing resolution.
You told me you didn't want to be with someone who made you feel like when their sky was falling, you had to be my Atlas.
Now, I swallow every word.
I know that every word of worry, every tear filled eye will send us closer to our doom.
Lying to you while I'm lying in bed, nightmare scenarios dance in my head, I realize loving you is not enough, and while you are sleeping, dreaming of a life without me, I am screaming, and falling, blood on my knees. I hurt you. I hurt you. I didn't know when to Stop.
When you slipped away from me, I had to hide my fear.