She's blocking the pain so that it doesn't flow through her. Replacing is what she turned to, To make her pain be numbed. This had a complete opposite effect on the person she once loved. He fell for miles, Lost his identity and then got it back. That is hell. He has been to hell and back and now knows, Another person's pain is another person's pleasure. Both are evil things, but Now I know how to not let them get the best of me