Welcome to the club. The "Should've stayed home" club. The "I'll never be safe" club. The "I tried to say 'no!'" club. The "He refused to stop" club. The "I froze and went limp" club. The "I'll never be the same" club. The "There's no handbook for being *****" club. It was not your fault. Welcome. You're safe now. I am so sorry you're here.