I never read your letter. I can’t bring myself to confront the sting of budding, simmering Regret. I can’t bear to part the veil which shields my failures from my body, from my lips and legs to listless hours spent avoiding variables; violent vestiges I ignore to keep my weary eyes above water. See, reality wrinkles its nose at the fantasies my insanity can concoct when I’ve yet to find a reason to chase you away. When the tethers of my grip have yet to give way to anxiety, leaving me to wonder if I feel too happy, look too good, want far more than what my karma will allow. I never read your letter, as I’ve been consumed with playing dress-up, draped in finery and fixtures fit to outshine all the glow of unshed tears under pulsing neon light. I'll coax it open it yesterday, but never tonight.