Oct 2020
Hidden
I was sheltered all my life.
But then I went to school
I made friends who stabbed me in the back
I learned what pain was
I learned what it was to be bullied
I learned what it was to hide
I learned that when they walk by to sink into the shadows
1st grade
Laughing and joking
Playing and carefree
Friends and playdates
Sleepovers and games
2nd grade
Sitting in silence
Looking at the front board
Some friends who ignored me
Lonely and anxious
3rd grade
Hurt and alone
I don’t even remember
3rd grade was lost in my mind
No friends
And failing hard
4th grade
Alone
Empty
Cold
Feeling wrong
No real friends
5th grade
Trying to fit in
Bullied
Hiding in the bathroom
Crying at recess
6th grade
Fell in love
She hated me
Was bullied more for liking someone that was not who I should like
Hid my feelings
Hid in the shadows
Alone
7th grade
A new friend
Happier
Still bullied
Still sad
Not feeling right in my body
8th grade
Cut my hair
Came out to family
Got a girlfriend
Had two amazing friends
But I was cut
I was broken
Hide in the shadows
Don’t let them see you
Don’t wear short sleeves
Pick up that pice of glass
Burry the blade in my arm
Hurry to the emergency room
Put on suicide watch
Three months later
Eat a peanut that you know your allergic to
Rushed to the emergency room again
Put on an IV for 3 days
Let out
Feeling numb
Cuts slowly grow deeper and deeper
Two months later
Not at school
Won’t answer phone
Friends worried
Still feeling empty
Goes to school
Gets put on watch from resource officer
Feels alone
Can’t breath
Panic attacks in P.E.
Catches feelings for your best friend
School gets canceled due to COVID
Fails all classes 4th quarter
Falls into deep depression
Has mantle break downs
Panic attacks daily
Family downgrades feelings
Summer of 8th grade going into highschool
Starts drinking a lot
Makes it 3 months clean
Not a day clean in August
Cuts get slowly worse, more, and deeper
Breaks up with boyfriend
School starts
Becomes your best friends boyfriend
Comes to school high or drunk
Scares girlfriend
Stressed out and alone
Confused
Waiting to see what happens the rest of the year
I was sheltered all my life.
But then I went to school
I made friends who stabbed me in the back
I learned what pain was
I learned what it was to be bullied
I learned what it was to hide
I learned that when they walk by to sink into the shadows
1st grade
Laughing and joking
Playing and carefree
Friends and playdates
Sleepovers and games
2nd grade
Sitting in silence
Looking at the front board
Some friends who ignored me
Lonely and anxious
3rd grade
Hurt and alone
I don’t even remember
3rd grade was lost in my mind
No friends
And failing hard
4th grade
Alone
Empty
Cold
Feeling wrong
No real friends
5th grade
Trying to fit in
Bullied
Hiding in the bathroom
Crying at recess
6th grade
Fell in love
She hated me
Was bullied more for liking someone that was not who I should like
Hid my feelings
Hid in the shadows
Alone
7th grade
A new friend
Happier
Still bullied
Still sad
Not feeling right in my body
8th grade
Cut my hair
Came out to family
Got a girlfriend
Had two amazing friends
But I was cut
I was broken
Hide in the shadows
Don’t let them see you
Don’t wear short sleeves
Pick up that pice of glass
Burry the blade in my arm
Hurry to the emergency room
Put on suicide watch
Three months later
Eat a peanut that you know your allergic to
Rushed to the emergency room again
Put on an IV for 3 days
Let out
Feeling numb
Cuts slowly grow deeper and deeper
Two months later
Not at school
Won’t answer phone
Friends worried
Still feeling empty
Goes to school
Gets put on watch from resource officer
Feels alone
Can’t breath
Panic attacks in P.E.
Catches feelings for your best friend
School gets canceled due to COVID
Fails all classes 4th quarter
Falls into deep depression
Has mantle break downs
Panic attacks daily
Family downgrades feelings
Summer of 8th grade going into highschool
Starts drinking a lot
Makes it 3 months clean
Not a day clean in August
Cuts get slowly worse, more, and deeper
Breaks up with boyfriend
School starts
Becomes your best friends boyfriend
Comes to school high or drunk
Scares girlfriend
Stressed out and alone
Confused
Waiting to see what happens the rest of the year
